My 2015 Resolution Part 2

I'm As I was saying in my last post, my New Years sucked! I fell asleep before the ball dropped on New Years Eve and on New Years Day I got a ticket! My first one in a very long time. 

Was I speeding? No. Was I driving recklessly? No. Was I texting or driving without my seatbelt on? Nope. 

So what did I do? Well...I flicked a damn cigarette out the window by accident!!

And what's even worse is that I was literally right around the corner from my destination. I was on my way to my parents house and was about to turn into their neighborhood when I saw the flashing blue and red lights. 

I honestly didn't even know that I could get a ticket for that! The kicker? I had an ashtray right beside me in my van that I usually use. My mind was elsewhere (probably thinking about how the hell I'm going to make new friends) and I honestly just wasn't paying attention to my stupid cancer stick. 

Then I got even more bad news. This isn't a ticket that you can just pre-pay a fine and that's that. I actually have to go to court for this. Which means getting babysitters and pretty much making a whole day of it. Ugh!! 

What a lovely way to start off the new year huh? 

So after a few tears (I was already in an emotional state for other reasons and this  was just enough to bring on the water works) followed by anger both at the female officer and then at myself, a light bulb went on in my head. Maybe this was a sign! A sign that my other New Years resolution should be to quit smoking. I've been wanting to for a long time anyway. It's just so hard, especially when I get stressed out so easily. 

But, I know I can do it! I can do it not only for myself but for my girls too. I decided that I would get one of those vapor pens and wean myself off of the nicotine first and then focus on the oral fixation habit. 

I went to one store to buy one of the pens and found out it costs about $75!! I know, I know, that's nothing when you think about the cost of cigarettes but I just didn't have that kind of money right then and there. 

So right now I am saving up for a vapor pen and I have majorly cut back on the number of cigarettes I smoke per day. My goal is to be a non-smoker by the end of the year. I can do it!! If anyone has any tips for me, please let me know. 

 Update: went to court and got a $50 fine but with court costs ended up paying $150. Plus wasted 3 hours of my life.  Totally not worth it!!