Thursday, July 31, 2014

So THAT just happened...

**WARNING: If you are eating something either put it down or do not read this. 

Well, quite possibly the most disgusting moment of my life just happened. 
Zoey was being fussy even after I held her for a minute so I checked her diaper and sure enough she had pooped. She had obviously been constipated. Her poop was little round hard balls. After getting her cleaned up and changed, I set the dirty diaper folded up on the coffee table. Jeremy's phone had been ringing while I was mid-change so I went downstairs to let him know that someone had called (thinking it was important or about work or something). I came upstairs back into the living room and I noticed that Emma was chewing something. Then she made a face and spit out something brown. My first thought was, "where the heck did she get chocolate?".  And then I saw it, little pieces of poo surrounding Emma. One piece had a little chunk out of it and there was also some in her hand. OH MY GOSH!! My kid just ate poop!!!! I was absolutely horrified. My baby girl had just pulled the diaper off of the table and took a big bite of her sisters crap. SO GROSS! I wanted to run away and go throw up but I couldn't. I immediately grabbed the wipes and got the shit out of her hand. Then I shoved them in her mouth, getting everything I could out of it. Then I took her to the sink, rinsed out her mouth, and gave her a bottle of milk. 
She was totally unscathed and happy as a clam but I on the other hand was freaking out. Could this hurt her? Will she get sick? Will she throw up? Ugh, I am such a bad mother. Why couldn't I have just thrown the diaper away before I ran downstairs for a minute? 
As Emma cheerfully drank her milk, I scoured the internet. What I found put me a little bit at ease. Apparently, this has happened to other moms as well. Thank goodness I wasn't the only one! That fact alone made me feel better. The more I read, the more I realized that my poop eating baby should be just fine. I'm going to keep an eye on her of course and watch for any symptoms but so far, she is still as happy as could be. Mama is still mortified (and still a little queasy) but I will live...I think. 😨😷😖


Emma, after the incident. 

Friday, July 18, 2014

Ready or not, Here we come!

It's finally here. The day I've been dreaming about for months. The day my husband and I leave for the beach without the kids. I am going to get a whole week to just breathe and relax and recharge my batteries!! You would think I would be absolutely estatic, and I am, but I'm also feeling anxious, nervous, even a little sad. 

My parents are the greatest. It's been a rough year. Being pregnant with the twins was hard and then having them and taking care of them up to this point was even harder. And helping my 4 year old deal with suddenly not being an only child x2 also had it's challenges. Some days she is more difficult to deal with than the twins. So, when my Dad offered to get us a condo on the beach, I jumped on it. A free place to stay at the beach for a week? Uh, no brainer. Then, on top of it, they offered to watch our children AND gave us a bit of spending money!! So incredibly generous and selfless and I truly cannot thank them enough. They are giving us so much more than a beach condo at a nice resort, free childcare, and money. They are giving us time. Time for me to rediscover myself, time to make some memories with my best friend who is joining us for the first 2 days of our trip, and time for my husband and I to fall even deeper in love and spend some quality time together. Again, I really cannot thank them enough. I don't even know how to begin to show them my gratitude for this. 

As thrilled as I am about all of that, this will also be the longest I've ever been away from my 3 beautiful girls. I am going to miss them so bad it's hurts. I know that. But I also know that they will be in the best possible hands. And this will be such a great opportunity for them to bond with their grandparents. I just can't help but worry, it's just in my nature. It's so hard to just let go but I'm going to have to.  All I have to say is thank goodness for FaceTime. 

On top of the emotional roller coaster that I'm on this morning, there are the normal worries that come along with any vacation. Packing for a family of 5 is a huge job. I have to make sure the kids have everything that they need for a week, that we have everything that we will need for a week, and make sure that our pets have everything that they need. That's a lot of stuff and I fear that I will inevitably forget something. As I'm writing this, I just remembered 2 more things that I need to pack. I better get moving 😊. 

Beach vacation, ready or not, here we come! 


Wednesday, July 2, 2014

A Blast from the Past : 1987


Today I turn 27 years old...

Born in 1987

In 1987, the world was a different place. 


There was no Google yet. Or Yahoo. 

In 1987, the year of your birth, the top selling movie was Fatal Attraction. People buying the popcorn in the cinema lobby had glazing eyes when looking at the poster. 


Remember, that was before there were DVDs. People were indeed watching movies in the cinema, and not downloading them online. Imagine the packed seats, the laughter, the excitement, the novelty. And mostly all of that without 3D computer effects. 

Do you know who won the Oscars that year? The academy award for the best movie went to The Last Emperor. The Oscar for best foreign movie that year went to Babette's Feast. The top actor was Michael Douglas for his role as Gordon Gekko in Wall Street. The top actress was Cher for her role as Loretta Castorini in Moonstruck. The best director? Bernardo Bertolucci for The Last Emperor. 


In the year 1987, the time when you arrived on this planet, books were still popularly read on paper, not on digital devices. Trees were felled to get the word out. The number one US bestseller of the time was The Tommyknockers by Stephen King. Oh, that's many years ago. Have you read that book? Have you heard of it? Look at the cover! 


In 1987... Aretha Franklin becomes the first woman inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame. Pennsylvania Treasurer Budd Dwyer shoots and kills himself with a revolver during a televised press conference after being found guilty on charges of bribery, fraud, conspiracy, and racketeering. The last Ohrbach's department store closes in New York City after 64 years of operation. British Airways is privatised and listed on the London Stock Exchange. Supernova 1987A, the first "naked-eye" supernova since 1604, is observed. U.S. President Ronald Reagan addresses the American people on the Iran-Contra Affair, acknowledging that his overtures to Iran had 'deteriorated' into an arms-for-hostages deal. The Simpsons cartoon first appears on The Tracy Ullman Show. Rudolf Hess is found dead in his cell in Spandau Prison. Hess, 93, is believed to have committed suicide by hanging himself with an electrical flex. He was the last remaining prisoner at the complex, which is soon demolished. NASCAR driver Bill Elliott sets all time fastest lap at Talladega Superspeedway, with 212.8 miles per hour. Lieutenant Colonel Sitiveni Rabuka executes a bloodless coup in Fiji. Nineteen year-old West German pilot Mathias Rust evades Soviet air defenses and lands a private plane on Red Square in Moscow. He is immediately detained. The first ever Edgefest festival takes place at Molson Park in Barrie, Ontario. Guns N' Roses release their debut album, Appetite For Destruction. The Federal Communications Commission rescinds the Fairness Doctrine, which had required radio and television stations to "fairly" present controversial issues. Unknown perpetrators hijack the signal of WGN-TV for about 20 seconds, and WTTW for about 90 seconds, and displays a strange video of a man in a Max Headroom mask. The video game of the day was The Legend of Zelda. 

That was the world you were born into. Since then, you and others have changed it. 

The Nobel prize for Literature that year went to Joseph Brodsky. The Nobel Peace prize went to Óscar Arias Sánchez. The Nobel prize for physics went to Johannes Georg Bednorz and Karl Alexander Müller from West Germany for their important break-through in the discovery of superconductivity in ceramic materials. The sensation this created was big. But it didn't stop the planets from spinning, on and on, year by year. Years in which you would grow bigger, older, smarter, and, if you were lucky, sometimes wiser. Years in which you also lost some things. Possessions got misplaced. Memories faded. Friends parted ways. The best friends, you tried to hold on. This is what counts in life, isn't it? 


The 1980s were indeed a special decade. The Soviet-Afghan war goes on. Eastern Europe sees the collapse of communism. Policies like Perestroika and Glasnost in the Soviet Union lead to a wave of reforms. Protests are crushed down on Tiananmen Square in China. Ethiopa witnesses widespread famine. Nicolae Ceausescu is overthrown. The AIDS pandemic begins. The role of women in the workplace increased greatly. MTV is launched in the US. There is opposition against Apartheid in South Africa as well as worldwide. Heavy Metal and Hard Rock bands are extremely popular. The rise of Techno music begins. Originally primarily played on campus radio stations, College Rock enters the scene with bands like the Pixies, REM and Sonic Youth. The Hip Hop scene continues to evolve. Teletext is introduced. Gay rights become more widely accepted in the world. Opposition to nuclear power plants grows. The A-Team and Seinfeld are popular on TV. US basketball player Michael Jordan bursts on the scene. Super Mario Bros, Zelda's Link, and Pac-Man gain fame in video games. People wear leggings, shoulder pads and Ray-Ban sunglasses. 

Do you know what was on the cover of Life that year? 


Do you remember the movie that was all the rage when you were 15? Signs. Do you still remember the songs playing on the radio when you were 15? Maybe it was How You Remind Me by Nickelback. Were you in love? Who were you in love with, do you remember? 

In 1987, 15 years earlier, a long time ago, the year when you were born, the song La Bamba by Los Lobos topped the US charts. Do you know the lyrics? Do you know the tune? Sing along. 

Para bailar la Bamba
Para bailar la Bamba
Se necesita una poca de gracia
Una poca de gracia
Pa mi y pa tiv Ahi arriba ahi arriba
Ahi arriba ahi arriba
Por ti sere
Por ti sere
Yo no soy Marinero
Yo no soy Marinero
Soy Capitan soy Capitan
... 

There's a kid outside, shouting, playing. It doesn't care about time. It doesn't know about time. It shouts and it plays and thinks time is forever. You were once that kid. 

When you were 9, the movie Dragonheart was playing. When you were 8, there was Jumanji. When you were 7, there was a Disney movie out called Pocahontas. Does this ring a bell? 


6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1... it's 1987. There's TV noise coming from the second floor. Someone turned up the volume way too high. The sun is burning from above. These were different times. The show playing on TV is Remington Steele. The sun goes down. Someone switches channels. There's Thirtysomething on now. That's the world you were born in. 

Progress, year after year. Do you wonder where the world is heading towards? The technology available today would have blown your mind in 1987. Do you know what was invented in the year you were born? The Cholesterol Drug Statin. Digital Light Processing. Electronically-controlled Continuously Variable Transmission. 

Have you ever seen me? I'm the future
I represent how it's gonna be, I'm the future
Born in 1987, I'm the future
Party people get ready, it's the future
... 

That's from the song The Future by Bow Wow. 


In 1987, a new character entered the world of comic books: Mister Sinister. Bang! Boom! But that's just fiction, right? In the real world, in 1987, Aaron Carter was born. And Joss Stone. Tom Felton, too. And you, of course. Everyone an individual. Everyone special. Everyone taking a different path through life. 
It's 2014.

The world is a different place. 

What path have you taken?

To get your own birthyear information, go to: 

http://whathappenedinmybirthyear.com/

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Confessions of an Introverted Parent

The past few weeks have been hard for me. Really hard. I've cried, I've screamed anted to run away and give up. I was honestly at a point where I just couldn't take it anymore. I gave in to the notion that some people just aren't made to be parents and I'm one of them. I don't have the patience for it. I don't have enough love for all my kids and my husband and my friends and family. I felt completely drained and like a complete failure. 
Then one morning while aimlessly scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed I came across an article that has really encouraged me and given me hope again. Maybe I'm not such a bad person but what I definitely am is an introvert. 

What is an introvert? 

introvertn., adj. in-truh-vurt; v. in-truh-vurt]
noun
1. a shy person.
2. a person characterized by concern primarily with his or her own thoughts and feelings (extrovert).
3. a part that is or can be introverted.

I've been this way since I can remember. It's not that I don't like people because I actually love people and I enjoy having company and going out and doing things but I also very much enjoy being alone. I am very self aware and often need time to process my thoughts and feelings. I need alone time. I need time to recharge my batteries and organize my thoughts and while I've always known this, I never thought that it could have anything to do with parenting. I just never put the two together. 

After reading this article a lightbulb went on in my head. So this is why I've been struggling so hard lately. This is why I feel like I'm two seconds away from being committed. It all makes so much sense. I've had no time to myself at all lately. I'm with at least one of the kids all day. They follow me around everywhere and even when the twins are napping I still have Lily who doesn't nap anymore. Although I make her have quiet time she still will come and ask me things from time to time and I feel obligated to spend some one on one time with her during the twins' nap time. Nap time is also when I get some of my chores done. If I didn't do it then, it would never get done. I can't even go to the bathroom by myself these days! Then, when all of my girls are safe and sound in bed for the night, I have to spend time with my hard working husband, or else he will start to feel neglected. Then it's time for bed. This leaves me absolutely zero time to myself. I am with someone 24 hours a day and when you have no time for yourself for days upon days, it can really wear a person down. Especially an introvert. 
I literally felt like I was one more second away from a serious mental breakdown. I began to have panic attacks daily and started to really regret having any children at all. I felt angry at God for giving me twins and angry at myself for getting pregnant again. 
I never felt this way when I had my first daughter because I went to work everyday for the first two and a half years of her life and I got enough alone time when I was working, even if it was just the drive to and from work everyday. I really miss those drives. Just me, myself, and I. 

It's not like I need "me time" to go out shopping or go get a pedicure or have a girls night out. Although those things sound wonderful right now, I just need some time to think. That's it. Just a little time everyday where I can be alone and process my thoughts and recharge. 

Now that I understand this about myself, I have to admit that things are getting a bit better. I make an effort now to cut out a little time for myself each day, even if it's only 30 minutes. This usually happens when the kids go to bed. I discussed this epiphany with my husband and thankfully he fully understands. While having 3 young children is still very trying at times, it is a little more bearable now. 

I just wanted to share this with other parents who may be having trouble. It's not that you're a bad parent, you might just be an introvert, and maybe, you just need a few minutes alone to just...breathe. 

Here is the post that helped me rediscover myself: 

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/holly-klaassen/why-parenting-is-so-hard-for-introverts_b_5518659.html

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Teething is TERRIBLE!!

Teething...man oh man I had forgotten all about teething and how it was with my first baby. Now the twins are both teething at the exact same time and it's a lot to handle! The fussing constantly, the always wanting to be held, the snotty noses, the putting everything they get their hands on into their mouths, and did I mention the fussing constantly? I have to admit by the end of the day lately I feel like I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown. 

Luckily this stage won't last forever, even though it feels like it will. 

Here are some things that may help baby feel better:
- Frozen washcloths 
- Frozen teethers
- Amber teething necklace 
- Teething biscuits (Gerber makes some that my girls love!)
- Frozen waffles/bananas/other fruit
- A cold teaspoon
- Cinnamon sticks
- Ginger snaps
- Celery (my Spanish friend told me about this. Apparently it is a Mexican tradition to give teething babies a piece of celery to chew on. 
- Baby orajel (some doctors advise against this. It has been said that it hardens the baby's gums, making it harder for them to cut teeth). 

This stage is very hard on baby AND mommy. Here are some things that I do to keep from going crazy:
- talk to other mom friends or family members who are going through or have gone through similar experiences. It's always nice to know you aren't alone and friends/family can be an amazing support system. 
- I know it's a little cooky, but I have started meditating from time to time. Find a quiet spot (probably while the little ones are napping) and just be alone with your thoughts. Sometimes I put on relaxing music too. 
- Exercise! It's hard for me to find the time but I always feel so much better after I've had a good work-out sesh. 
- Have a glass of wine!! It helps! 😊
- Put some headphones on and listen to some good music. It calms my nerves plus then I can't hear the kids whining haha!  

What are some things that help you and your baby get through this difficult stage?



My fussy girls 😫






Wednesday, May 7, 2014

A Day In My Shoes


A little insight into my world. This is how a typical day for me goes...

5:00-5:30am: Somewhere in this time frame my husband's alarm clock goes off. I wake up, roll over, and attempt to go back to sleep. I usually get woken up again when he kisses me goodbye but that is something worth being woken up for. Then I try to go back to sleep again for a few more minutes. 

6:00-6:30am: Lily comes downstairs and gets in my bed and snuggles with me while I watch a few minutes of the news. 

6:30am: We go upstairs, I make bottles for the twins, and get Lily some breakfast. Then I go to the third floor (townhouses and all the stairs SUCK) to get the babies, who are already awake and playing in their cribs. I get one in each arm and bring them down to the main floor. I change their diapers and they drink their bottles, Lily eats her breakfast, and I make my coffee. I feed the doggies and let them outside. 

7:00-9:00am: The kids watch cartoons and play together on the floor with toys while I check emails, Facebook, or blog. 

9:00-9:30am: Time to get the girls dressed and ready for the day!! This takes about a half hour. I make the twins another bottle and they drink it while I get Lily dressed and do her hair (doing her hair can be quite an ordeal as she has long curly hair and it gets tangled very easily. She absolutely hates having her hair brushed and usually throws a fit while I'm trying to make her look half decent). Then I struggle to get my wiggle worm twins dressed and change their diapers. 

10:00-11:00am: Emma and Zoey go down for their morning nap and I jump in the shower, get dressed, and dry my hair.   Lily usually complains that she is hungry in this time frame so I make her a snack. I also try to get some cleaning done in this hour, usually vacuuming and a load of laundry at the very least. 

11:00-12:00pm: As soon as the babies wake up around 11am they want a bottle so I make them one, change diapers, let them play for about 20 minutes, and then feed them some baby food. Lily likes to help me feed them. Although this is very sweet of her, it most often results in baby food flying and spilling everywhere. So, after I clean everyone and everything up, I make Lily some lunch and get ready to head out to a friends house or go for a walk, or anything that gets us out of the house for a bit. I pack up the twins diaper bag, trying to remember everything that they could possibly need, but inevitably, I almost always forget something. 

12:00-3:00pm: We play with friends or go run some errands. If we go to a store, I have to maneuver a double stroller and a shopping cart through the isles by myself. This is harder than it sounds. We get many looks and people often stop me to check out the twins, ask me a million questions, or joke with Lily about being a big sister and helping mommy. Although these people mean well and are very nice, it almost doubles the time it takes to go anywhere and get stuff done. During this time the babies usually take a nap, whether it's on the floor of a friends house, or in the car as we are driving around. They drink another bottle and they get another diaper change too. Sometimes we do stay home all day, in which case the babies take a longer afternoon nap in their cribs.

3:00-4:00pm: Kids play while we wait for daddy to get home. We usually read a book and sing a song or two. Then, we work on ABC's and numbers or color/paint. Twins get a diaper change and a bottle. I let the dogs outside. 

4:00-6:00pm: Jeremy gets home from work around 4pm and after sitting down for a few minutes, he plays with the kids for a bit while I do some chores or just go outside for a 5-10 minute break. Then he takes Lily for a walk or we all just hang out together for awhile. 

6:00-6:45pm: We make and eat dinner and then clean up/wash dishes. Twins get a diaper change and a bottle and/or some baby food. The dogs also get fed and let out. 

6:45-8:00pm: Bed time routine. The kids get baths, brush teeth, and we read a bedtime story together. I put the twins to sleep in their cribs and Lily picks out a movie. She watches a movie before going to bed every night. She rarely makes it through the entire movie before falling asleep though. 

8:00-10:30pm: Jeremy and I finally get some "adult time". We talk and watch tv together. I do a load of laundry and finish up some chores, check emails, and try to catch up with friends and family through Facebook, texting, emails, phone calls, etc. I also try to do a little reading before passing out. 

11:00-5:00am: Sweet, sweet sleep! Lily sometimes comes downstairs in our room and tries to get in bed with us or she just grabs a pillow and blanket and sleeps on the floor with the dogs. The twins, thankfully, sleep through the night. And then the whole process starts all over again!

This is just a typical day for us. Not every day goes as smoothly as this. There are melt downs, tantrums, days that we don't feel good, special events, etc. However, 90% of the time, this is pretty darn accurate. 

What is your day like? 











Sunday, May 4, 2014

I've got birthdays on the brain.

Yesterday my husband's cousin's baby girl had her first birthday party. It was super cute and it was something I'd never seen done before...a breakfast birthday party at 10am. I was way late of course, nothing new there, but the theme was so cute. Here is the invitation...
Zoey got ahold of it and chewed off the right corner a bit. The invitations were all hand made and the party colors were all done in the "Tiffany's" blue and white. We were all encouraged to come dressed in our best pearls as it says on the invite and everyone looked great! And check out this cake!
We also got "Tiffany's" look alike jewelry boxes with candy bracelets inside as our gift for attending. The whole thing was just adorable and it got me thinking about my own children's upcoming birthday parties. 

Lily's actual birthday is May 11th, which also happens to be Mother's Day this year so we decided to have her party the weekend after. She is obsessed with Cinderella so we are throwing her a princess party. The big surprise is that Cinderella herself will be attending. I can't wait to see Lily's face when she meets her idol. We've never hired an actor for a birthday party before but I've been to other parties where they had a princess come and it was great. All I need to do now is figure out the food/snacks, get a cake and decorations, and put together some gift bags. Ok, I have a lot more to do than I thought but at least I still have 2 weeks to do it. 
Emma and Zoey's birthday isn't until September 3rd but that didn't stop me from thinking about their first birthday party. I looked up some themes online and the three I like the best so far are:
Sugar & Spice
2 peas in a pod
Thing 1 & Thing 2
All of which are very common themes. 
My search will continue and maybe I'll come up with something a little more original. If anyone who reads this has any ideas at all, please feel free to let me know!
Until then...Pinterest here I come!